Showing posts with label bullies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bullies. Show all posts

December 9, 2011

Kindergarten Christmas Play

It's time for the kindergarten class to stage the Christmas play.

I'm easy to spot because I am the only kid who's wearing eye glasses.


Suburban Chicago, December 1963. The teacher chose the prettiest girl to play the Blessed Virgin. She prays over the manger while I daydream, dressed in a dark jumper.


Suburban Chicago, December 1963. We sing for the visiting parents. I am just left of the tree, disengaged, looking out the window. I was a little misfit.


Suburban Chicago, December 1963. We dance around the room. I am just to the left of the teacher.

These were bumpy times for me, because I still spoke little English.


Suburban Chicago, December 1963. Finally! The teacher gives each child a gift.

October 16, 2011

You can dance.

Like most little girls, I loved to dance. My Parents found my early interest in dance amusing. Often, when we entertained guests on Sunday afternoons—as Lithuanians do—a family member would play the piano, and I would take a spin on the living room carpet.


Suburban Chicago, 1962. I do my best to keep the guests focused on me.

  
My childhood obsession with dancing did not get beyond the living room. I was quite disappointed when my Mom barred me from enrolling in ballet lessons. She thought that ballet, and its little-girl trappings, would make me vain and would teach me the dangerous lesson that looks matter more than brains. She wanted me to be smart, not pretty. Mom had a valid point, but it's not one that I could appreciate as a child.

This restriction was especially hard because I already was a misfit at school. Our neighborhood, heavily populated by Sicilian immigrants, had few Lithuanian families. I did not speak English until I started Kindergarten. I wore glasses. My Mom cut my hair in a boyish style because she believed that keeping the hair short would make it grow back thicker. My Mom worked when all the other moms stayed at home. And then, ballet lessons were verbotten. I was bully bait.

Given the baggage, I had quite the laugh when I found this photo:


Kaunas, Lithuania, February 1930. My Mom practices ballet in her bedroom.